I’m Too Small

As a writer, I had a hard time writing this… a really hard time. As a BIG believer in sharing one’s story and being radically open with others, I found myself slightly uncomfortable addressing the place I am in right now. But, is it not amazing how when we’re in the thick of our storm, God positions us to share our story in hope that it can help others?!

The genius of the Lord is mind-boggling! Ok… here we go.

As a law student, a perfectionist, and sometimes an in-closet control freak- I am feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders. What do we do when we are consumed with the pressures of life?

The pressure to succeed,

the pressure to find our way,

the pressure to fulfill our God-given mission and call.

Everywhere I turn, all I see is pressure. Today, I hit a breaking point. I sat in an empty classroom and I began to speak to the Lord, tears streaming down my face as I confessed my anxiety to Him — and in that moment, He began to sing over me.

First, the Lord is so good that when we feel weak and lost, when we are confused filled with doubt and defeat, He begins to sing a song of victory over us. One thing led to another and praise began to alleviate the pressure: praise and worship triggered the great exchange.

I exchanged my worries, fears, anxiety and took on His peace and comfort during this stressful time. Today, I realized something:

I realized that I’m too small to carry the weight of the world on my shoulders. I realized that my 5’8” frame is too weak to be filled with anxiety and worry concerning the future.

I must trust. Sometimes, God will position us in a place in life where we have no other choice but to trust. One day, we’ll come to the place where leaning on our own understanding is no longer an option, we’ll recognize our weakness in comparison to His strength and then we’ll know that when we come to Him, He takes our burdens and He makes us light. Jesus is a pressure reliever; He alleviates the weight placed upon us by the world’s expectations of success and prosperity.

I’m reminded of these precious words,
“Come to Me, all of you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. All you, take up My yoke and learn from Me, because I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for yourselves. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” Matt 11:28 HCSB.

When we trust Him, we find rest. Where rest resides, pressure becomes uncomfortable; for they cannot coexist in the same room. Today, I encourage you to find rest in Him- and this rest may compel you to release your control, but that’s the point. You are to live life under the influence, direction and divine leading of Him and not of your own accord.

How do we get rid of the pressure?

We rest in Him.
We love Him.
We find ourselves captivated by Him.

All in all, we trust Him.


Hi! My name is Simone Holloway and I am a 23 year old law student from Greenville, SC. I live by the philosophy that nothing is impossible to them that believe, and I make it my mission to overcome impossibilities. Jesus and coffee (any type of coffee) keeps me sane! I’m a lover of poetry and prose, spontaneous adventures, compassionate expression and a good homemade scone. I think that God is so big and that He wishes for us to live through him a BIG life, filled with wonder. In my spare time, I like to spend time with friends and family, write a blog post or volunteer with a service organization. I’m an avid reader, a songwriter, a drummer and a spontaneous dancer in grocery stores. Everyday should be filled with joy because our hope is in Him. Some call me Minister Simone because of my license but I prefer Simone or Mo for short. Hmmm…enough about me, I look forward to getting to know all of you!


One thought on “I’m Too Small

  1. DOPE! You were totally right in sharing these thoughts because it helped someone else, ME. Thanking God for using you to be a vessel and light to help others through pressures times. This was right on time, as I have been feeling like I’m boiling over and ready to pop with pressure. One of my tasks for this week is to take quiet time with God, listen and remain still. Thanks again for the encouragement, you have no idea how much it was needed.
    Peace & blessings!


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